I Feel Like Shit, I Have Nothing To Believe In And My Head Feels Like It's Gonna Explode

Somebody is pouring liquid ice on my brain and using it to push my eyes out. So it feels at least. Also I am completely hopeless and there is nothing to do about it. I thought I had actually for the first time in my life found something that's worth something, but it was just a lie, so now I'm worse off than before, even.