2009-01-31

Summary Of January 2009

The best photos I took this month
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The most important news story of the month

Coolest CRACKED posts of the month

Best LOLpics of the month
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2009-01-27

You Silly Girl

I'm falling in love with you, stop being so afraid, you can't scare away love, but you can love away fear <3

2009-01-24

My Newest Poems

2009, January 19
DON'T STAND IN OUR WAY

If there is a god
Don't dare to think he's on your side
You hide behind bibles
And throw out judgments where you go

Get back to Earth
Here, people are starving
People are hurting
And your superstition won't cure it

I've heard there's beauty in the world
Somewhere far away perhaps
And it's hard to reach
So don't stand in my way

See, all we really need is love
In whatever shape or form
So don't stand in our way
Because of what your book says

There are people getting married
Having sons and daughters
And those that only dream
So don't stand in their way

January 22
THE END OF THE FAIRY TALE

Love picks you up
Warms you up
Cools you down
Spins you around

A hurricane will pick you up
And smash you to the ground

A fire will warm you up
And burn you to ashes

The ocean will cool you down
Right before you drown

The merry-go-round will spin you around
Until it makes you sick and dizzy

Love smashes you to the ground
And burns you to ashes
And makes you drown
Until it makes you sick and dizzy

Always read the end of the fairy tale

January 23
BE MY SOLACE

I'm afraid
But not ashamed
I earned my respect
And hope for love

Was I loved once? Am I still?

Be my solace!
Face your fear

January 24

WHO IS THE SUN?

Who is the Sun
But whoever keeps you warm?
Who is the Moon
But whoever protects you while you sleep?
And gently strokes your cheek
Or keeps you up all night
With her warm, soft light
While you burn her memories to ashes
And cover her every flaw
With a fresh kiss
And you make up silly lies
About a world that's in her eyes
And devote your religion
To the beauty of her skin
Just for the joy
Of making her happy again

2009-01-22

Funny Websites

Here are some links to some funny websites - Handpicked by me and listed in random order!

Institute for Naming Children Humanely - Basically, any name is wrong
The End of the Internet - This is the last page
Weird eBay Auctions - So bizarre
Eric Conveys An Emotion - Everyone likes a sensitive man
Free The Gnomes - They're people too, you know!
Staring Contest - I don't know
White Whine - Stuff white people complain about... Or more specifically, spoiled people I guess
404 Research Lab - This is not an error
Funny Photos - Read the dang title
HolyJuan - Stuff
Country Stereotypes - Kinda interesting
Lifehacker - Could be useful
MotiFake - Some of these are so funny
5 Second Films - Finally, movies I can focus on!
The Chive - Funny pictures
Famousr - Kinda pointless, but what the heck!
The Infinite Cat Project - This is the essence of awesome!
Moronland - Silly
Dumb - Also silly
Chat With God - He's kinda bitchy
Dave's Web Of Lies - In case you get bored with the truth
Tomatoes Are Evil - Join the hate!
Eat Liver - No, it's not a cannibal site, it's really just a collection of general funny photos
Human For Sale - How much are you worth?

2009-01-21

What I Want

I decided to write a list of what I really want and need in life, instead of a silly new year's resolution. Well, I'm finally done with the list, it was quite necessary to make such a list, since I am quite discouraged most of the time. I feel like I am not entitled to be happy or have a career or a relationship.

So, I figured instead of just lying around being depressed, I could at least write a list over what could possibly make me slightly less depressed and I'll try to remotely follow these things, though I suppose I might not be able to have all these things. The names are removed because I felt like this is so personal, I don't really want to give people out, it's not like I'm saying these are their dreams, they're my dreams!

The people I am close to would know exactly what people I am referring to anyways and besides, this list is really mostly for myself. It might look on some places in the list as if I am really confident or really afraid, but neither is actually true. The truth is really that I am usually quite confident and brave, even though I don't have a lot of self esteem, but sometimes I just get afraid of the strangest things!

*I hoped I had some kind of connection with [friend]. Thinking of him makes me feel like I have found something meaningful... For this to really be true is what I want most.
*I want to be close to [other friend]. He is my best friend and I would love to live with him and have him in my life always. He means a lot to me.
*I want to have children. I really, really do. I get so jealous when I see other people with children, especially women my age.
*I want to become better and better at photography. Get my photos out there. Not be scared of a little fame. Take the chances.
*I want to write more and more poems and get them out there. Show them off on the internet. Not be scared of a little fame.
*I want to practice karate regularly and keep on learning more and more. I really want to go far in this sport and philosophy.
*I want to be a model. For myself, but maybe even for others. Not be afraid of the fame and challenges. I'm a pretty girl and people want me as their model.
*I want to take all my opportunities at life, whether in art or socially. I don't want to fear fame or commitment. I should ignore the fear and do what is right.
*I want to always look pretty. Some days I just lie around and never get to putting on nice clothes. I should always wear nice clothes and look great.
*I want my own place. That it is my own is what is important. Also I have to have room for my snake and a computer. Room for photography and karate is a plus.
*I want a job. In childcare specifically. Or working with the mentally retarded. I don't need to get paid much, maybe I'll even start out working for free, to get a foot in there, so to speak.
*I want to do more and more charity and activism. I can't afford right now to donate any money, other than for [child I sponsor], which I can barely afford, but I want to do more in the future.
*I want more pets. I would love to have lots of animals, though I should only buy animals once in a while, so I don't buy more than I can handle.
*I want to always be a big part in the life of my little cousins. Also, in [little girl I know]'s life, even though she isn't technically my cousin, so to speak.
*I want to travel. I want to see different parts of Sweden and I would love to see other countries. Africa would be nice as well as Asia, though I'm not sure which countries in these beautiful continents.
*I want to keep on reading and learning about lots of things, perhaps even officially study, if I would ever have the energy and focus to do so.
*I want to keep on blogging, whether it's photos, lists, personal stories or fictional stories. I want to get my blog out there and get people commenting on it.
*Practice more witchcraft. Learn more and more about it and become a more active witch. Not be so afraid. Witchcraft is part of nature.
*Keep all my friends close to me. Not just [friend] and [other friend], my other friends too. I want to make sure they are always in my life.
*Actively log onto all my internet accounts and make sure my passwords, profiles, photos, layouts and such are updated and fresh.
*Teach and learn. If someone wants to learn from me: Teach them, if someone wants to teach me: Learn from them. This is always a good thing.
*Make sure that everyone knows what [abusive psychiatrist] has done. Make sure to change the medical journals so my name is cleared.
*Keep on having a close relationship to the pets that I have now, even the ones I will move away from and also the ones that I have sold.
*Fight for animal rights, even try to give them the same rights as humans. We were all born equal and should not be treated as anything else.
*Make sure to bring beautiful things into my life, beautiful art and such and not hold onto things that just don't fit my personality just because I might want to use it in the future, like clothes and jewelry.
*I would like to keep on singing and learn to do it better. Some people think I sing well, though I'm not sure I do. Anyway, I want to be able to sing well.
*I want to keep on making Flash games, preferably better ones than the ones I've already made, maybe make sure my graphics are improving and that the themes are interesting.
*Learn new skills. Maybe learn how to make traditional kisekae dolls for example. Maybe take up sewing clothes, which I haven't done in ages.
*Own traditional formal clothing from different cultures and times. Doesn't really even have to be formal, traditional peasants' clothes are fine, too.
*Actively try - And maybe endorse - New products from the internet or nice stores. There are websites where you can order lovely vegan cosmetics, for example!
*Keep on writing, both articles and stories. I can publish these on my blog or on various internet sites. I like to write about my opinions as well as fictional stories.
*Take an active part in karma and justice: It is important to cherish each innocent life as well as make sure no one gets away with treating others as shit.
*Keep my health and hygiene. Shower, brush my teeth, eat, work out every day. Karate is a good sport to make sure you are athletic.
*Live life my way, the honest way, the decent way, without following stupid made-up rules or traditions. It is more important to follow your heart and soul than to follow other people's expectations.
*Take care of all animals, children, handicapped and homeless in my life, whether or not they are my responsibility. If they are not my responsibility, then I cannot trust they are someone else's responsibility either.
*Keep my room and my environment clean and orderly. There is no reason to keep your things in a mess or to keep old crap lying around, that you will never need.
*Keep my computer clean and orderly. Make sure to get rid of old files I don't use and download the programs I like, so my computer is always useful and working as it should.
*Keep on working on my flexibility. I've been extremely flexible since I was a child and I shouldn't let it go to waste. Flexibility is awesome and happyfun.
*Try to be more and more independent. I already know that I can take care of myself, but sometimes I get so used to my parents taking care of me.
*Be helpful with my family. I know they are annoying and stupid sometimes, but I love them and they have been so good to me.
*Get rid of these dang warts I have covering my hands. They are ugly and I feel disgusting when I look at them. They are not good for modeling or even being seen in public places.
*Try to sleep at night and be up at day. Or at least if I'm up at night I should sleep at day. I get so messy in my brain when I sleep irregularly.
*Take a sign language class. If I am going to work with handicapable people in the future, sign language would definitely be good to know.
*I want to make sure every spot of my skin is perfect. Blemishes and even fine hairs show so much on photos. I should definitely try to make my skin better.
*Perhaps most importantly: Keep on putting all my focus on love and on peace and not dwell so much on what I fear or hate. If you feel fear and love at the same time, it's more important to follow the love than to avoid your fears!

2009-01-20

The Turtle

Just want to tell you. My turtle which died on the 13th. A few hours after it died I buried it with plenty red flowers.

I'll miss it forever.

2009-01-13

Feo

My turtle Feo has died. I still haven't buried it, but I'm about to. I'm just... It's like I can't accept that it's gone.

2009-01-10

Dusk Is Falling

I found this anonymous poem on the internet a while ago.



Someone hold me
Someone care
I'm crying out
But do you dare?

Because I push
You far away
And sit alone
Each wasted day.

Does it matter?
Should I die?
I can't beat this;
I can't try.

You don't get it;
Never will.
Don't you see?
I'm broken still.

Faded dreams
A game of darts
Don't try to fix
My tired heart.

And when I go,
Know I'll be free.
So please don't waste
Your tears on me.




As I said, I didn't write it, I don't know who did

2009-01-09

My Cousin Majken

I love her so much! Here is a new photo I took of her!

2009-01-07

Frups

Oooh I want my best friend Frups to come visit me soon... I long for him so so much! I need hugses!

2009-01-05

The Coolest Child Singers I Ever Seen!

Here is a list of the coolest kid singers from YouTube... Not counting my little cousin Olga, who is by far the coolest kid in the world!

The best kid singer:
Makayla (U.S.)

Runners up:
Seung (Korea)
Volha Satsuk (Belarus)

More really cool kid singers:
Kimmy (U.S.)
Princess J (U.S.)
Amy Desismont (Sweden)
My Wangdahl (Sweden)
Shania (U.S.)
Kseniya Sitnik (Belarus)
Connie Talbot (Britain)
Baby Girl (Malaysia)
Kayla (U.S.)
Joy Gruttman (Germany)
Abby (U.S.)
Myra Myra (Thailand)
Zara Larsson (Sweden)
Noelle (U.S.)
DeLyla (U.S.)

2009-01-02

New Poems By Me

2008-12-29
A STRANGER'S CHILD

It makes me sick
The way you act
As if you were right
And I were wrong

Yet I only live my life
You're just here to harm me
I could throw up
Because of you
Because of this ugliness I see

I cannot eat
The sweetest fruit
Will someday rot
Rot just like you

Like a pile of rotting corpses
That were once living children
Children just like yours
You would kill the child of a stranger
But you wouldn't harm your own

When they know what you have done
They just might kill themselves
To get away from you
Because being raised by a monster
Can cause a lot of harm

If you cannot protect
A stranger's child
Would you protect your children
From you?
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2008-01-02
ALL FOR YOUR LOVE

Don't lie once again
I know what you've done
But I forgive you
As I always do
I'm desperate
For your love
I'll break the law
I'll lose my mind
I'll be your slave
All for your love
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BEYOND SALVATION

I'm a goddess
I'm a devil
I am honest
I am free
I'll be your master
And your slave
I'll give you pleasure
Bordering on pain
You're gonna miss me
If you choose another girl
See I'm just a fool in love
Now all I have
Is this knife against my skin
And I'm beyond salvation
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MURDER WAS YOUR ONLY WAY OUT

You shouldn't cry
You made your choice
Murder was your only way out
You would have cried
Twice as much
If he still was around to rape you

2009-01-01

The Best Motivational Posters

Here are my very favorite motivational posters from the internet!